A note from Gary Carlton

Of all the Chris Rage movies which we consistently receive inquiries, Fucked Up ranks in the top two or three. It's a difficult movie to describe (something Rage said himself), and at times difficult to watch, but that's with 25 years of perspective on it, and the times in which it was made. It's a study in contrasts between Casey Donovan's life, or more directly, the kind of sex he liked to have, and the conservative wave sweeping the country throughout the 80's and specifically the backlash directed toward gay men with regard to HIV/AIDs. It was daring of Rage to make this movie, in that time. There hasn't been anything like it since.

Do you want to see a hot man get so turned on he becomes more of a sleazy animal than a human?

Christopher Rage has devoted years to capturing this kind of scene on camera. Nobody but superstar Casey Donovan could turn in the uninhibited, slutty performace clearly photographed in this, the most intense assplay and fisting video you’ll ever see. In fact, it will be too intense for most people. (We’re not kidding.) Christopher Rage is known for his gutsy, real videos, but even he thinks this one is his wildest.

For one solid hour you’ll watch Casey and John (he looks like he might be Casey’s older brother... a very hot man!) get nastier by the minute. They start with a regular dildo and work their way up to a couple of monsters. Then Casey opens his hole even wider and a fat manfist slides into him, deeper and deeper. By the end of the amazing hour he’s thrashing on the bed moaning “I want to get fucked, I want to get fucked!” like he’ll never get enough of the hot hand that’s fisting him.

This video is hard to describe, but words like sex-crazed, stoned-out, piggy, nasty and sleazy sure come to mind. Not to mention FUCKED UP!

"One of the most amazing film experiences I've ever had is Christopher Rage's Fucked Up!"

... exclaims John Karr in Drummer magazine. The most intense assplay and fisting video you'll ever see -- in fact, it will be too intense for most people, and we're not kidding. Casey Donovan and his buddy start with a regular dildo and work their way up to a couple of monsters. Then Casey opens his hole even wider and consumes a fat man-fist as it slides into him deeper and deeper. This video may fuck you up!

It’s one of the scariest films ever made.

Donovan’s last film, the appropriately titled Fucked Up, was released the year before his death from AIDS in 1987 … It’s one of the scariest films ever made. It’s [sic] director, Christopher Rage specialized in sleaze filmed with a clear-eyed stare, and here – with the main title spelt out in lines of cocaine – he embodied a human being who had fallen off the edge of the universe. It’s a place far beyond orgasm, let alone emotion. Drugged to his glassy eyeballs, Donovan is a mere receptacle – a human sex bin that self destructs before your eyes in an increasingly incoherent guttermouth monologue.

He was a grand old sex machine... and he had no interest in moderation

Manshots Magazine interview with Chris Rage, 1991

Manshots: ... one of your most amazing projects — Fucked Up.

Rage: Casey Donovan was an extraordinary human being. He was a grand old sex machine. He was a drug addict toward the end. And he had no interest in moderation. He lived at full-tilt till two weeks before he died -- and I got it on tape. But it's not pretty — it's not how people want to remember him.

Manshots: How did Fucked Up come about?

Rage: Casey called me. He had somebody — this fuckbuddy, and he said they looked somewhat alike. They wanted to document their sex life by making a movie called Brothers or Cousins or Stepbrothers, something like that. I asked how much they wanted, and the figure they named seemed like an extravagant amount. Finally, I put the money together and it was set up for one afternoon at 1:30 -- the other guy had to be at work at five. They arrived, they both looked great, and I started shooting immediately. They would go off in a corner, and I assumed they were using drugs.

Manshots: Were they already on drugs when they arrived?

Rage: If they were, it was not detectable. But it didn't surprise me, though, when they started — it was part of their game. Over the next couple of hours, Casey especially was wiped to the point where I stopped the shoot thirty-five or forty minutes earlier than I had to.

Manshots: Why?

Rage: It was too gross. I couldn't believe I was going to be able to put out a movie with someone behaving like this. I was appalled at Casey's behavior. He turned into the most greedy, uncaring pig. It was all me, me, me. After the other actor left, Casey went up to take a shower. When he came back, he wanted to fuck with me, with anybody. I gave him his money and he said he was going to the baths. I told him that was too much money to take to the baths. He tried to have sex with me again. I threw him out. Later, when I went in to edit the footage, I said, "There's nothing here." But I had to release it, because I'd spent all this money. And I started to edit. After the first three cuts, I realized what I had. This was an evil, black documentary on drug abuse. However, it was stunning. The thing I never did in selling the movie was say that it was sexy. And it isn't. Not a sexy movie — but really stunning.

Manshots: What kind of feedback have you gotten on it?

Rage: Nothing but raves -- except from Casey's friends. They think it's my fault. Casey's friends were divided into two groups — the ones who knew he was that way and the ones who didn't. What people don't want to acknowledge is that it was a very accurate picture of Casey. It was Casey. (Laughs) And yet Casey loved that movie. I will never be able to create something that macabre again. Don't know that I'd care to. I can't watch it. But I do think it is amazing.